Ever have one of those days (weeks) where everything required “hurrying” and then “waiting”? I’m (sort of) stuck in Mexico right now on a jobsite – Cancun, actually. We were supposed to deliver store fixtures and begin installation yesterday morning but… Well, this is Mexico and every time I work here I’m reminded that we Americans do not rule the world, regardless of what we might have been taught to believe. Something about flooded roads and trucks not being allowed to pass through certain areas have caused delays. My contact Ernesto keeps telling me everything is OKAY. But somehow I’m starting to lose confidence in his assurances. Actually it’s kind of refreshing to know that we Americans (by the way Mexicans are Americans, too) are NOT the grand imperialists that some people would have you believe, but that’s another story.
Anyway my Spanish is very limited and my patience is even less so, but I’m trying to “chill out”. This might all be a test. How much can I really relax and “let go”? Am I really able to “unwind” and just wait for things to work themselves out? NO SÉ?
Now before you start feeling too sorry for me let me tell you that the weather is better than predicted (70% chance of rain), the food is wonderful (shrimp tacos), the hotel is fabulous (pool bar) and the beach is just outside my door. But still I want to get my work done and get home – WHAT’S WRONG WITH ME? Most people would kill to be “stuck” in a place like this but I just want to go home. I’m told my granddaughter Anna prayed for “Pawpaw in Mexico” last night and that she misses me – “I miss you too, Anna!” Plus I feel guilty – guilty for not working, guilty for enjoying the beach and the pool without Deb, guilty for spending company pesos on food and (maybe alcohol) while no real work is happening. And guilty for being looked upon as an IMPORTANT AMERICAN BUSINESSMAN by these nice Mexican folks that have been waiting on me ‘hand and foot’ and are just are trying to eke out a decent living wage.
In the meantime, I guess I’ll go back to the beach or pool and try to tip as generously as possible to ease some of my guilt. Also it seems that the occasional Corona seems to ease my conscience as well. “Uno cerveza por favor”! My high school Spanish teacher, Sister Madeline, would be so proud!