My son Blake tells me that he’s pretty sure we are all one consciousness. The universe experiencing itself; a pulse experienced through different hardware. He believes that unconditional love is the answer but what is the question?
He and I sometimes have these existential kinds of conversations. What is the meaning of life? Is there a God? Or is it all some elaborate myth? Were we “created” or do we exist because of some cosmic happenstance? Do we need God? Does God need us?
It makes me think. And wonder. And pray. And sometimes I wonder as I pray.
People behave badly. We murder. We rape. We abuse children. We discriminate based on religion, race, gender, ethnicity, and sexual orientation. We arm ourselves. We build walls. We exploit the most vulnerable amongst us.
Genesis tells us: God said: Let us make human beings in our image, after our likeness. But if ‘God is love’ why is there so much un-Godlike behavior happening in our world. If God made us in his (her) image why aren’t we loving one another? Why aren’t we lifting one another up? Why aren’t we caring for one another?
And then I crawl out of my hole and look around. I see every little loving thing that my wife does each day for me and countless others. I see my friends who have often lifted me up during times of heartache and self-doubt. I realize that I am cared for not just by friends and family but by strangers who work for peace and justice in our world.
My grandson Noah asked me recently, “Pawpaw, do you know what zeal is?” Before I could offer a definition he exclaimed, “It’s how God loves us and how God wants us to love others!” And I realize then that we do! We do love one another. We do lift each other. We do care for one another. Not always. Not all of us. Not often enough. But we do!
And perhaps that’s the question – why not always; why not all of us; why not often enough? Unconditional love is the answer. God was once again revealed to me through my seven year-old grandson. God is in the love we share; in the countless times that Noah has lifted me up from my gloominess and my self-pity; all the times that we have cared for one another. Noah full of zeal! Blake too has loved me and lifted me with his kindness; his sincerity; his goodwill. These two (uncle and nephew) come from very different places – physically and spiritually but God is there – loving; lifting; caring.
Evil exists. Bad things happen. But that’s not the end of the story. God has given us power over evil. We just need to share the gift of Love. Perhaps then others will ask the question – not why not always; why not all of us; why not often enough?