Looking for God in the Darkness

Come Be My Light, a book that collected many of Mother Teresa’s most personal and private correspondence, was published ten years after her death. Her letters revealed that for the last 50 years of her life she had been afflicted with a deep sense of God’s absence; her “dark night”. The revelation that Saint Teresa of Calcutta suffered in her spirituality is startling but I find some comfort in it.

How many times have I felt abandoned by God? How many times have I prayed for God’s strength and felt powerless?  How many times have I faced hardship, disappointment, loss or pain and felt completely alone; my own “dark night”? How often have I wondered if God hears my prayers at all? If Jesus really exists why does He not answer my pleas? 

Contemplating Teresa’s inability to feel God’s presence in her life is an opportunity for me to model her faith during my most desperate times. When I am adrift in my desert of doubt and loneliness, when I question God’s very existence, I can look to Teresa’s example of faith and know that God is with me; even in my darkest hours.

I know that when I can’t pray; when I can’t feel Christ’s presence I have family and friends that are praying on my behalf.  We are called to be the Body of Christ; to be Christ to one another. I know that I’m going to continue to struggle through my own “dark night” from time to time. But even when I feel abandoned, I try to remember that I have each of you lighting my way. So to those of you who pray for me, have prayed for me, or will pray for me – thank you for leading me through the darkness to His holy night.

Peace,

Denis

2 thoughts on “Looking for God in the Darkness

  1. This was a beautiful, thoughtful, heartening message Denis. Thank you!
    We have all been there in the darkness from time to time. it is so encouraging to know that even someone as good and holy as Mother Teresa experienced it as well. Just have to keep praying I guess! And keep writing!!

  2. Beautiful and inspiring! Mother Teresa gave herself to the poor and touched so many lives. She struggled just like all of us ! Let us not forget to pray for each other and to continue to thank God for our many Blessings! Thanks Denis for your writing as it makes me focus on what’s important during this Lenten Season!🙏🏻

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